The Aquarium

The spring evening settles around us as we keen, sailboats restless in our berths. We are trapped souls, our barren masts scratching skywards, pulsing, almost vibrating against the indignity of our nakedness. Waiting for the disguise of darkness to camouflage our wounds. We are still alive.  We are the clinical trials which never took place, […]

This Magic Moment

It’s well before 8 Saturday morning, the eve of the Winter Solstice, as I set out for the waterfront, dogs trotting, impatient, beside me. The fog hovers over the puddled pavement. A mere five minute walk to the marina, a grassy promenade grazing the bay near the houseboats and anchor outs. A well guarded perch […]

Thirty Years

“Within us is a secret longing to remember the light, to step out of time in this dancing world. It’s where we began and where we return.” Jack Kornfield Last night, I shared my story at AA for the first time. I don’t owe my sobriety to AA, however.  I was one of those people […]

37.5

Tomorrow begins week two of cutback … began in January @150… we have added samE, folic acid, lithate, (searching for celery root)… working with osteopath … considering LEM. Yoga 4x a week. cardio a few times a week (not enough!) Meditation. Looking for mindful meditation group and for support group for people who are withdrawing […]

The Icarus Project: Navigating the Space between Brilliance and Madness

BrainZaps Beat: Organization: The Icarus Project. Five Sanity Points.Check out the Icarus Project. A visionary, comprehensive resource for outreach, organizing, and research on all aspects of mental illness. Focusing on establishing a network of grassroots, community based groups across the country (with global chapters forming), Icarus seeks to create an evolved vision of the experience […]

Scanning: FMR’s Sleep Deprived v. Post Partum Depression

Postpartum Depression Articles showing images of brains’ of women with Postpartum Depression: CMS Spectrums, the International Journal of Psychiatric Medicine, has a detailed research paper online, showing several brainscans. Brain Acitivty Visibly Altered During Sleep Deprivation FMRI images of sleep deprived brain of Pospartum patients It is possible that when the prefrontal and temporal regions […]

Psychotic vs. Nonpsychotic Depression

An overview A growing body of research collected through the means of structural magnetic imaging (sMRI) has indicated that structural brain abnormalities exist in patients diagnosed with schizophrenia (Cannon 1994) as well as in patients with affective disorders, such as depression (Lange 2004) and bipolar disorder (Lopez-Larson 2002). Furthermore, Salokangas et al. (2002) report that […]