The Aquarium

The spring evening settles around us as we keen, sailboats restless in our berths. We are trapped souls, our barren masts scratching skywards, pulsing, almost vibrating against the indignity of our nakedness. Waiting for the disguise of darkness to camouflage our wounds. We are still alive.  We are the clinical trials which never took place, […]

The Stomach & The Brain

After my latest major psychological/spiritual episode late last year, I opt to do things differently. I decide to concurrently take the terrifying plunge and change my meds by consulting with an unconventional and highly respected psychiatrist. I follow this with five days working one-on-one with my master yoga teacher, an aruvedic healer. At first glance, […]

Thirty Years

“Within us is a secret longing to remember the light, to step out of time in this dancing world. It’s where we began and where we return.” Jack Kornfield Last night, I shared my story at AA for the first time. I don’t owe my sobriety to AA, however.  I was one of those people […]

doghouse found

  Even now, six years after leaving home, I return here with my old ‘new’ dogs, Stella and Macaroni. We sit and watch as the tide moves into the Lagoon, and I remember hundreds of walks along the shore with Gussie and Bobo; and Stella as a pup, how she would swim across the channel […]

The Work

February, 2012 … Still, I’m on this journey lately. A journey back to the time before all hell broke loose in my psyche, ripping apart the integral bonds which had afforded me an admittedly shaky and vulnerable footing in ‘reality.’

mirror neurons

Neuroscientist Giacomo Rizzolatti, MD, and his colleagues at the University of Parma were mapping the brains of monkeys to see how specific areas of the brain function“They were monitoring a cell,” Goleman says, “that only fired when the monkey lifted its arm. One day, the cell fired even though the monkey hadn’t lifted its arm […]

The Icarus Project: Navigating the Space between Brilliance and Madness

  The Icarus Project. A visionary, comprehensive resource for outreach, organizing, and research on all aspects of mental illness. Focusing on establishing a network of grassroots, community based groups across the country (with global chapters forming), Icarus seeks to create an evolved vision of the experience of mental illness and to empower its members with […]

Pain, the brain & the mirror box

Notes of an Anesthesioboist So I realised that what’s going on here is when you amputate the arm, the part of the cortex of the brain corresponding to the hand is not receiving any signals because you’ve removed the hand. So it’s hungry for sensory input. So what happens is the sensory input from the […]

brainzaps beat

Fatigue Red Flag For Postpartum Depression ScienceDaily (Mar. 25, 2002) — University Park, Pa. – A simple questionnaire on fatigue, administered two weeks after childbirth, may serve to identify women who at increased risk of developing moderate to severe postpartum depression according to Penn State researchers. “Postpartum depression affects up to 15 to 20 percent […]